He's come over from England to see me, and I'm too afraid to say "no, I don't want to see you" to him. I'm trying to work up the courage to cut him out of my life completely but it just feels less complicated to try pretend there's nothing wrong - I usually wouldn't see him more than five days a year if that. I don't want to be around him at all, but I'm afraid of the conflict that would happen if I said no