no I was put into a residential treatment center for teens for about a year and if you wanted to leave you had to stop and I just coped by other healthier ways like journaling, not being alone when I felt the urge, etc I was also a lot happier so the urge wasn't as bad thats why I am so nervous this time because my mood is horrible and I am anything but happy so I thought I would post it here for some support and to make it more "real" by posting it for others to see