Alters have a reason of being, a job to do, or reasons unknown. Like our Suzy is a comforter, she kisses the boo boos and hugs the hurt. Our workers go to work. We have male and female public relations officers, emotional alters, cooks, babysitters, memory holders, etc. We number in the hundreds of all genders and gender types like bi, trans, cis, non.

At a point we must come to accept things, that's the only way healing can begin.

Our system has no host, we are all equal. We switch all day moment to moment. Everyone's system is different. Our first 18 years of life is trauma filled, so we never really learned any life coping skills, both public and private- so an alter was created for each of the lacking and trauma dissociated.

This can be such a lonesome condition, and I only find others online that gets it. Everyone near me thinks I'm faking or crazy, totally unbelievers and un-sympathizers. Oh well, whatever.

Because of the initial trauma as a baby, the babies brain stays dissociated and each part of a memory develops its own personality, the way it sees itself. For every bit of unprocessed future trauma after the initial, more others are created. Some alters just hold bits of memory and don't develop into full personalities. The way this works is so crazy fascinating, I wish I never quit psych/college.

Great on the therapist! I hope it goes well for you. I'm 47 years old and lived this way in co-conscience and in co-operation that it's our normal, so the idea of integration is freaky to us, but just the idea of being a single...is also appealing.