Hi Amy,
Amy your not ugly please believe that, I truly understand. Amy please think of yourself and leave if your being abused and go somewhere safe. Is your husband caring ? Was the sexual abuse when you were a child? I am so very sorry your life is troubling presently. Please don't blame yourself for the abuse. Please don't cut yourself, sorry that many people don't understand self-harm. Find a supportive GP that can help you.
Distract yourself from self-harm with hobbies that you enjoy, like music, art, cooking, etc therapy will help. Take care Amy.