Well as some of you may know from my postings, I have been having a pretty rough time. I am trying my hardest to get past the assault from May but it is very difficult and I am unsure what to do. I have been doing everything I can think of and I seem to be getting no where. But that's not my biggest problem. The way I understand it is that when someone has been victimized it is necessary to be supported. But the way things are going in my life, no one is supporting me. My family are doing nothing but dragging me down. I mean my own mother is telling me that the assault was all my fault. I also live in an assisted living facility because of my emotional and psychological problems. But the staff there are not willing to even talk to me for 10 minutes when I need it. so I am wondering why I am even here. I came here to get support and the staff are just not there at all. Actually many of them have just been plain rude to me. Like today I asked to talk to someone earlier in the day and she told me no and that I just shouldn't think about it. How can one not think about what happened with something like this? Later the same person, after I had talked to the police to ask questions and got upset, said I just needed to put this all behind me and don't let it bother me. Obviously I dont' believe she has been through anything like this, and anyway, she just doesn't understand we all react differently to different things. She also told me that I needed to do this on my own and that support was not going to help me. Which I know that victims of assault and abuse need support the most. I am just feeling very alone in this and I am feeling very hurt right now. I just don't know what to do. I am going to keep fighting though, it's what I need to do.

Jennifer