Hi Spaceyspace, great name! I find that spacey feeling really horrible, it can last ages.

Totally get what you mean. Part of me keeps hoping my T has got this all wrong, she says "why are you going back into denial again?". This seems such a bizzar thing to say, I've felt both frightened and relived at the same time about the diagnosis.

There's no way there's going to be any sharing with family, not safe and they 're not capable of self reflecting.
Angry alters can be scary.