Hi Hiddensecret,

It seems that your underlying problem is that you have never learned to relax your mind and body and simply 'let go'.

There are techniques out there which teach people how to relax and achieve better sleep. Here is one from the Sleep Foundation:

https://sleepfoundation.org/insomnia...ation-exercise

There are many more. If you find it useful, perhaps Meditation would be of greater benefit in the long term for strengthening your mind and getting you into good sleep habits.

Rest well,

Dave.