Hi mle1115, welcome to PC.

You were together only four months, luckily you recognized this individual was wrong for you and you were smart and ended it. Some people stay way too long, invest too much in a negative relationship only to have a much harder time once they finally break away.

Never accept any of the blame or that you were not good enough, that was never the case, infact you were good enough and you were smart and saw the signs and got away, so you are very smart. You are also smart not to follow him and don't be surprised at him finding another person so fast either.

Your heart is broken because you lost the "dream of", that is what you lost the most in this. But, he was never going to be capable of fulfilling your dream of a person worthy of your love and trust, a person who loved "you" for you because he is not the kind of person and if he is a narcissist, then he will not fill that "dream of" for anyone else either.

Now work on you, go work out, buy a couple of new outfits and meet new people and don't waste any more time on this individual, go find what you "dream of" instead.

((Supportive Hugs))
OE