Thank all of you for you input on the 19 years old next door. Why do I want to make out with him and sneak around is that the mania part or the depression part???? I know he has never slept with anyone yet and I have no sex drive but I look at him and all I want to do is Kiss him all the time. Am I going crazy again?? Or am I losing my mind??? Its like a fobidden fruit. I dont know wnats going to happen I saw him today and spent the day swimming and hanging out with his friends and my 17 year old daughter. I asked him in private today if this is freaking him out and he said no. Cause I know I can be honest with all of you, my brain seem out of whack, I will tak to the therapist tomorrow. Any more honest words please send them I neep help before it gets out of contol.... Thanks Everyone Tammy