((((((wings)))))))))))

I know it's a horrible cliche, but don't you dare give up. Or I'll throw things at you... well no I won't. But still...

You're in a horrible place right now, and it sounds completely totally awful. I know you've posted before about the ECT being your last hope, and I'm sorry about that, do think you should go for it though if you think it's best. More importantly, keep writing and expressing how you feel, cause I swear it does help.

Feel free to PM if you need it, I've got hope for the masses today, so you can have some of mine if you like...

Love, Meander.