Hey Firebird,

I hope your mother's ok, sounds really rough. Try not to stress about the other stuff, I think some of the other guys here are right about the fact you should talk to a therapist or someone you trust in real life about all this too, it might help you, since it's clear you're really down at the moment.

Post more too, if it helps, I find just vocalising things, or writing them helps too. Your mother's lucky to have you worried about her, and altho I see what you mean about the guilt (I often have days when everything in the world seems like my fault), but this is NOT your fault.