No i already am followed at the meantal health center (quite unhelpful and badly, but it is what it is). I went to the phobia T to help me with this particolar phobia with which nobody else seems to be competent enough. I also have my good T with which i have ended proper therapy but he's available for emergencies.

I am waiting for a letter from phobia T elaining why he dumped me. Which i havent understood conpletely...

His rejection hurt so much more than any work he was afraid of doing with me (and whichi is partly a reason for he didnt want to work with me)

I hope i'll never hear again from him. He hurt me so much. So much...