Being treated, unfortunately doesn't always mean having the right treatment.

Since you are still so incredibly symptomatic, I'm doubting your treatment is really treating you effectively.

Just some things to think about...

What type of therapy are you partaking in? How is it supposed to help, VS how effective is it?
Do you go there to vent and gain support, or do you go to obtain coping skills to help combat this monster?

Are there different models of therapy you can try if your current model is ineffective?

Have you implemented healthy life style changes such as good sleep hygiene / sleep ritual, exercise, meditation, balanced diet, daily routine?

The medication you're on, have you assessed if it is keeping you stable or actually keeping you depressed? Do the Pros out weigh the Cons? Are you being your own best advocate where your pdoc is concerned and not letting him make life altering decisions that you have to live with?

Have you thought about changing pdocs? Is this an option?

Since you are unemployed and not socializing, have you considered volunteering or getting involved with social groups with similar interests and hobbies?

Please don't think I'm prying or being nosy, these questions and their answers are not for my benefit... This beast has to be tackled from as many angles as possible, and we need to try and live as balanced a life as possible if we are to have any hope of managing it effectively.

I'm really sorry life sucks so badly right now, hopefully if and when you manage to improve your environment your BP might actually ease up a bit, instead of relentlessly kicking your a.s.s left right and center.

I know that is true for many of us here on this board.