Please do stick with your trauma specialist... and remember, that all of this is "you" it's still all you The brain is wonderful item God gave us... and the mind uses it to create personalities to handle the traumas we encounter when it's just too much for the conscious to imagine.... well something like that Dissociation is a gift that lets you keep living, imo.

Your other parts might have names but don't trust enough to share them. It doesn't matter... what they all need to know, what you need to know is that it's okay and you are loved, and they don't have to protect you like they used to ... but have a new role to learn for a great future life. Once the trust is there (which is why it's important to be able to stick with a T and trust over time) then the memories will slowly be allowed for you to review some... but you won't have to go through everything because as soon as the brain learns what you want to do with each type of memory, it continues to file them on it's own! How marvelous!

You can get through this. It's all okay.