Hi MissInvisible,
Sorry for the pain and hurt and other emotions you feel. It is always easier for an outside party to tell us what they see. They do not need to cope with the minefields of emotions left over from our past.
At some time in our lives, we all have given our crown jewels to a stranger somehow thinking they would guard them well and take care of us. You are not alone, taking so long to let go, hoping beyond all hope that things will get better some day. Please do not blame yourself.
Old wounds heal with difficulty. This may not be the first time you were treated in this way. Our childhood often is a field of wounds and hurts that seldom heal completely as we soldier on trying to be strong enough to keep on keeping on.

CANDC
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Originally Posted by MissInvisible
I should know the answer but I'm looking for some advice and help. My ex broke up with me 5 months ago. It was because I was being too negative and paranoid. That's why I feel so much regret. My ex told me if I wanted a relationship with him that I should spend time on my own and I should heal and all that crap. 5 months later I found out that he was dating other women (I could see from his statuses) when we split up and giving me false hopes of a future together. Now I know why he put "don't be afraid to tell how you feel about someone, you might be missing out on a person you could spend the rest of your life with", something like that. Am I going crazy or is that just wrong? I feel so angry at him. So I decided, enough is enough. I'm doing this for my own mental health and sanity. The reason I haven't moved on is because I thought I could make it work and I wanted to try again sometime in the future. Apparently I lead myself on. The thoughts of "what if I don't find someone else?" comes to my mind. My friend is probably getting annoyed with me. He's been such a supportive and encouraging friend. He suggests I let him go and stop talking to him. I should have listened to my intuition. It would have saved me a lot of grief and save me from going insane.
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