Hey guys,

It's been a long time since I've posted. This post is for the people that still remember me and/or have followed me in the past. I've never forgotten you guys and I just wanted to give a brief update as well as an apology.

I've been doing a lot better. I'm still seeing LCM, but our relationship is so much healthier and it is no longer harming me at all. I don't feel pain because of the limits of our relationship and I don't remember the last time I've felt super insecure about it. I saw a trauma therapist about 6 months ago that I liked, but I currently can't afford the copay so I'm not seeing her currently. I still definitely need trauma work, so I'm working towards that goal. I'm currently about to graduate college and I'm looking for work.

I also wanted to apologize. I have had a history of stirring up drama on here and triggering a lot of people. I was wrong to do that and I'm sincerely sorry to everyone that was genuinely trying to help me. I found myself seeking attention an awful lot on here and frequently forgetting about the feelings of the other people on here.

I'm not sure if I'm going to be hanging around these boards the same way I used to. PC has been super helpful for me in a lot of ways, particularly in finding support in my treatment. However, I also feel like being here has triggered my BPD in a lot of ways. During my break, I've felt quite a bit more secure in my relationships with both LCM and my friendships as well as feeling good about not being triggering to a bunch of people who are also struggling online.

So maybe I'll be around a little bit. I haven't decided yet. I just wanted to let you guys know that I still exist, I still appreciate you guys, and I'm sorry for the drama I've caused in the past.