Thank you Patty. I know that it's not the right path to take, but I sort of feel like I have no other path. I don't know who would ever love me. I know that's stupid because I have plenty of time, but no matter what anyone says, that's how I feel. Thank you for the advice, though.. I don't think I'd really go out and sleep with a ton of guys, but even that I'm entertaining the idea scares me a little.