I am retarded and forgot about my appts, and please dont lecture me about being responsible for my treatment and all that because i already know and i dont need any more ppl telling me that...

I missed yesterdays appt with pdoc bc i thought she said two months so i didnt even have an appt with her on my radar..also missed my counsling appt today bc i usually go on thursdays but its a holiday this week but apparently that doesnt give a red flag in my brain...

So bc i was supposed to see my counsler, she is the one who has my chart, so that along with no docs being available today i couldnt get my script called in. And i have to wait til monday to go to a "failed appt" appt? Amd i dont even know if ill get my script that day.

So i have one 150mg pill of lamictal that I was told to cut in half and take one tonight and the other tmrw night qnd I wont have any until monday at the earliest.

Im so scared of whats to come in the next few days. Withdrawl symptoms shouldnt be an issue right? But im so scared of becoming so irritable that i lash out at my family. Has anyone had to go without their meds for a few days and how much damage was caused? Things were going so well and im so afraid of it all going to **** bc i cant remember a ******* thing