In the last several weeks I've had both visual and auditory hallucinations and paranoia. It's gotten better as my depression has worsened (I was hypomanic at the time most of it happened) but I haven't told anyone. Telling my therapist or pdoc makes me very, very anxious, like this is MY secret that I MUST keep and there will be repercussions of telling. Which is probably delusional since obviously they are not going to yell at me because my brain misfired. I know I should tell them and I really just can't.

I've never done this before. It's been hard to talk about before but I really can't thin of too many things that I have been completely unable to talk to my therapist and pdoc about.

Is this just me or does psychotic stuff seem like a huge secret to other people? (And it's not that I'm ashamed of the symptoms; I know it's nothing I did or whatever).