Hi Justwaiting, welcome to PC.

Well, are you a male?

Firstly, let me say that as we age our ability to surpress the possible traumas that we experienced at a younger age becomes harder. I read about this a while back and it's like that barrier that allows us to surpress thins and gets weaker, and that is why people who are older might start to remember these things and be confused "why now" after all these years?

I can't tell you "for sure" that the curiosity you are having actually means something like that happened. It could mean that at a young age you fantacized about it. If you are a male, it is not unusual for a young male to be attracted to his mother. The mother is the first intimacy (non sexual) the male child has, and then they discover themselves sexually and that can be confusing.

Always remember, children don't really understand "sex" on the level adults do. They are naturally curious and explorative about what it means.

Hope that helps some.

OE