Hello. Okay I'm not sure how to start the story, so I'll just go with what I think will get my point across the best. My cat Morgan picked me as his favorite when he was a kitten, and I have loved him dearly all 4 years of his life. No problems or anything. But about 6 months ago my friend's cat passed away of Urtheral Obstruction, and they were far too poor to get him the help he needed. It was horrifying to me because not only did I have to see this cat slowly dying with my own eyes, but up until then I had never realized how bad it could be to be so low income with a pet. Then a month after my cat got into a small accident where he lost about half of his tail, and I couldn't feed myself because I had to pay his horrendous vet bills. Since then I have bee losing my mind over this cat.

I constantly cry when I think even the slighest thing is wrong with him. He peed on the floor just this morning and I was hysterical. I went from cleaning his litter box every other night to every single time I walk past it, just to be sure he is using the bathroom enough. I am in a poor financial state and if something was actually wrong with him I'd have to make the choice of putting him down or surrendering him. Which is bad, becuse as well as causing me crippling anxiety...This cat is a therapy cat. So when I'm not weeping about him, I'm weeping about other things, and he serves as a way to keep myself mentally stable.

But apparently I can't even have that. I've started spending money I don't have on extra wet food for him to make sure he gets enough moisture not to develop an illness in his kidneys or bladder. I'm saving up my pennies to get him his boosters (which are 3 years overdue), and I'm pining over him every moment in absolute fear that one day I'll wake up and he will be dying. I've started praying at night for him to be okay, and I'm not even religious! I've started losing sleep, and stopped eating because almost every time I look at my own pet my heart drops in worry. This is killing me. I can't stand to lose him. I don't know what to do.