I have PTSD with dissociative features. I'm still trying to figure out what that means.

But I do have a question. When I RP, its like a part of me really becomes that character. I think like them....think in their voice, not my own. I start to dress like them, pick up their hobbies, get my hair cut like them. It's like I am them, and yet I'm not because I am still attached to who I am...though I lack a stable identity anyway.

Is that the same as dissociating? It's not like an alter coming in and taking over, but its like I share head space. Maybe this is more infatuation. I'm trying to determine what it is. I just know that I've been rping since I was a child, to be someone else, somewhere else, doing something else. I didn't want to be who I was and where I was.