What am I doing wrong?

I just want to feel BETTER.

Maybe it's because he's a guy, maybe it's entirely my fault for how I feel... I don't know what to do.

I feel like I'm drowning. I hate that feeling.

Kinda odd that I stumbled upon (no I didn't search for them) ... articles about when to terminate therapy. Should I? I don't know. Maybe I'd be more screwed up than I feel right now.

I don't know what to do. I don't know why I'm complaining, my problem with him isn't as bad as other people. Maybe I should just be glad that he's putting up with me. I don't think I would put up with me.

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