I live in Saudi Arabia and diagnosed with Bipolar 1 with Psychotic features. I recently recovered from Mania and in the past four months I was hospitalized twice.
My Mother and Brother also have Bipolar disorder and they don’t take any medications like me. My Mother’s first Bipolar was triggered at age of 25 and the second was triggered at 55!, only two times in life and she doesn’t take any medications.
It seems like my Brother and my Mother has learned to control their moods with prayers and Quran but in my case I am still struggling, my bipolar triggered 4 times in 4 years.
I usually go to mania for very long time and don’t realize that I have problem so I don’t take medications, so usually it gets prolong to 3-4 Months, after which I have to be hospitalized.
During Mania I consider myself as savior and a secret agent and rest of the people seems Enemy (secret agents) to me. I usually have irritable mode during my mania but thank GOD I don’t usually swing to depression (depression happened only once after my first mania). I feel myself lucky that I don’t go to depression, because it was extremely killing when it happened to me once.
My Pdoc used to put me on Depakene (Depakote) and I used to feel very numb (may be because of higher dosage), so I never took my medicine after recovery because of its interference with my life. But recently I was introduced with Lithium.


I am looking to explore more options like meditation, prayers etc but this time I have a fear in mind that My Mania don’t gets triggered again, since I usually commit lot of blunders in office.

Now that I have recovered, It's been 3 weeks since I am taking lithium Possibly the highest number of days I have taken any medicine.

Here In this forum I am seeing people taking medicines but still having problems, it makes me in doubt that medications is not an ultimate solution.

Will I be able to live productive life with medications? Is it possible to have mania triggered when you are on medications?


I am studying as well as doing job. I want to be absolutely normal in my life with no numbness.