I just posted how I was feeling better actually good and happy, and now I'm feeling so depressed, SURPRISE SURPRISE

I just got my period, then missed work, I haven't showered or brushed my teeth in days, watching tv day and night. I have to work tomorrow and I hate it
And yes, I'm being self centred and ungrateful and just sad.

I wanted to have this last for once, I wasn't counting on it but it felt good, it felt
Like it could last. At least a little longer
I feel like I might have self sabotaged my happiness
Like I cannot be happy anymore I just don't know how to deal with it, it's so unfair! It's not like the illness hasn't robbed me of a ton of life already and what it could have been.