Same here. Over 20 years of so many meds. The "side effects" in some cases were illnesses in their own right. Geodon gave me seizures. Seroquel gave me terrible akathesia. Part of the problem was that i had a terrible "psychiatric nurse prescriber" who i kept going to, for the worst years, so that was my fault. I was too doped up on this junk to think clearly and end the "treatment."

Im lucky now, with ethical providers.