(TRIGGER) Sorry Iam unsure of how to do the trigger thing. First, thank you for your response. Now let me take the time to fill in some blanks. I am the youngest of five sibilings. My mother was married alot of different times as well as dated alot. I am not sure how old I was when I first encountered something odd, maybe twelve or so. The first odd thing I can recall was my older brother (by nineteen mo.) Got caught looking at dirty magazines while she was buying cigirettes. The clerk told on us and she defended us, saying that if we were going to look, she would rather know about it than for us to sneak around to it. That was that. She didn't mention it again.
The second time was shortly after by less than a yr I guess. A boyfriend she was seeing took us on a trip. He rented seperate rooms for him and her and another for my brother and I. After drinking too much she came to our room and said he had passed out and she asked if we wanted to go skinny dip in the motel pool. We sent her back to her room thinking she was just drunk and not realizing what she was doing. We didn't speak of that again either.
There are two more strange occurences, but i will put them in a different post, so they are not so long.
Sorry about the length of the discreption but I wanted to put it all out there so I can hoopefuly come to terms with this.