Hm, I see.
You might be able to find random threads where you can just say something small without much importance, if you don't mind doing so too much.

If you don't mind me asking here, do you actually have friends outside of the internet at the moment? I'm also curious about your relationship with your family

That is not an option even if I wanted to, I won't be doing anything where I meet people and reallife friends are a bother I can't handle. Not to mention all those uncomfortable thoughts and feelings from being around people