Thanks OpenEyes...

First, yes I do have a t. We are working weekly right now and I did tell him some about the young child feeling. He said a lot of what you said. I have read a lot here and on the internet, but really couldn't find where anyone mentioned flashbacks like this unless it was in re-experiencing the traumas itself. Mine can be a fear/terror feeling and be triggered by something, but at other times I also feel like a young child in a very excited/happy way (I never really have happy at any other time except those short times I have the young feeling).

Maybe this is all it is. I just couldn't find it discussed anywhere that I could relate it to myself.

Thanks for the insight and just fyi,, I am only deleting my account because of a mess I made and am going to create a new one and start over. I am not going to share as many details as I have in the past, but am going to keep coming here. You guys are a wonderful help.