Connection is a weird thing. Sometimes I feel like me and T are connected and other times I feel like we are miles apart. I read several of the responses to this post. I find myself wishing that my therapist would give me a little keepsake , I never wished for her to give me anything in the past but after thinking about it I know it would mean a lot. In the same breath I feel defensive and closed off from my therapist. Some of you saw my recent post ( I was dismissed ). At this very moment I don't feel connected to her. I feel let down , angry, hurt. I am questioning this lengthy process , have I been naive? Does this person even like me? How can I go from feeling deeply connected to her to wondering if she even likes me? Whenever I have asked her in the past she has told me to think about us and feel it, then I would know ... all of that is out the window right now . Sorry, didn't mean to hijack this thread.
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"I wish you would step back from
that ledge my friend
You could cut ties with all the lies
That you've been living in"
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