Wow. I'd say you should take this as a huge wake up call. I don't know the law where you are but in MI, a OUI is a really serious problem and you would need a good lawyer for sure. You should deff start with AA and therapy and maybe the courts will take that into consideration and go easy on you. And really pray no one calls child services. As far as your bf goes, I totally get it. When me and my bf got together, I was drinking all day everyday and would pull stupid **** all the time. I got wasted and took a bunch of pills and ended up in IP. He stood by me. There were countless times my family had to call him at work because they couldn't control me. When I finally got sober back in May, I cried and apologized my *** off. I still say sorry to this day when it comes up. I never got a DUI though but I drove drunk on a daily basis. How I got away with it, I don't know. I just say I'm damn lucky.

Now comes coping with sobriety. I still struggle to this day. I ended up taking my meds normally again but I don't currently see a tdoc (I know, huge no no). To be honest I became a hermit for a few months because I didn't know how to deal. I got sober after I lost my job so I'd sit in bed all day everyday in my own pitty party. I didn't clean and barely took care of myself. I just recently got out of my depression with the right med cocktail. So all I can say is it takes time. But you really learn a lot about yourself and your emotions. You find out your triggers and healthy ways to cope. So please stick with therapy to find out your reasons to turn to alcohol. If you find you have a MI (or if you already do) then get on meds to help.

Dx: BP2, PTSD, bulimia/anorexia
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