Hi everyone,

I was diognosed in 2011 with ADHD. Long story short. I got away from all the peeps that thought I was weird. I now live happilly with my girlfriend with the same giftl-D

So, on to the next problem.
I grew up with a single mom. I think she was a Schizo, or something. She fits the discription. Anyway, I'm in my late thirties now. But I'm still searching for my passion, what I was meant to do. I now how to make money, but I want my job or own business to mean something.

I never had a dream when I was young about what I would like to be when I grew up.
So I now have the following hypothesis.

My mom was never supportive off me. I remember that when I was excited about something and I told her, she always brought me down. This in combinantion with not fiiting in led me to think the following:

Could it be that my subconcious mind blockes me from finding my dreams?
Eveytime I shared a dream or a passion, it meant pain.
So now I still can not see myself doing a certain job, or starting a type of business.

Don't get me wrong: I am "succefull" in terms of making money. It is just in jobs that I don't really like.

I read a lot about the fear of succes. But that's not really it. I have a vived imagination, and am definitely not affraid to try stuff and just go for it. I was an engineer, then a cop, then turned banker.

So what do you guys think?
"My subconciuous mind blocks my vision"

So when I find a way to retrain my subconciuous mind I will be able to see what it is that I really want to do.

Just a thought;-)
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