Hello and welcome to Psych Central. I sincerely hope that you will consult a Psychiatrist regarding your concerns about your issues that you have been having. Self Diagnosis can lead to many things happening that can be prevented by seeing a professional therapist and Psych Dr. There are many therapies available from a professional that can help you to understand what you are going through and help to alleviate some of the symptomes you may be having at this time that has led you to the diagnosis that you have chosen for yourseelf. I hope the best for you in the future. Take care. soidhonia