I'm starting to think that chronic negativity is a bipolars' natural state. By that, I mean depression, pessimism, intense anxiety, irritability. For me at least, being positive, optimistic, hopeful and finding humor in things is a daily fight. I've been this way all of my 33 years. Does anyone else feel the same way?

Granted, I've been under a lot of stress lately. My finances keep tightening more and more, and I am getting more depressed about it. Maybe I'm about to be triggered into a hypomanic episode, which I certainly hope not. Luckily, I have finding and pursuing ways to help my financial state improve and I'm not letting this ruin me nor am I sitting around doing nothing. But damn, I am so irritable lately! Thanksgiving just passed, and I am grateful for nothing. Just now someone bumped into my table, and I felt like screaming. Just moody, pessimistic and irritable. And the fact that I am like this makes me even more down and feel lousy about myself.

Does anyone else believe negativity is a bipolars' natural state?