My first session was a day of testing basically. I went in initially for ADD testing and I knew I was having major depression issues but I didn't mention it.

Of course, the testing revealed everything pretty much. The first 'real' session was a bit interesting.

He's CBT, which I had never heard of back then. He said that this way of talking back to negative thoughts was working on many patients. Then he explained the process and said now we can help people in weeks instead of months.

I immediately thought to myself, oh great, I've got a deadline to meet and I feel just awful. I could barely get out of bed in the morning and had a hard time taking care of my son. I just wanted to cry but I waited until I left the office.

I should have cleared this up with him early on because it definitely made me feel worse knowing I should be done in weeks. I mentioned it later on but we've never really talked about it.

Here it is now a year and half later and I am learning so much about myself. If he hadn't stuck it out with me, or had I just given up, who knows what would have happened with me.