Is it possible your meds aren't working anymore? You're describing depression while being on an AD. I would contact pdoc and consider changing meds or increasing your dose.

Dx: BP2, PTSD, bulimia/anorexia
Risperdal 4mg
Trileptal 300mgs
Buspar 45mgs
Ativan 1mg PRN
Vyvance 70mgs PRN