I'm sorry this is so badly written but I'm at a loss and don't get why I can't take a single thing without the worst possible thing happening. I'm not imagining it either. I wonder all the time if I'm making it up or just scared but I don't believe I am. The haldol was fine for me I just couldn't sleep and felt like I was vibrating. But I stopped seeing things and hearing stuff. I didn't feel any different but that was the first time something good had happened. I was devastated when I was told I couldn't take it. Surely there is medicine to counteract akathisia? I mean they have medicine to counteract every other side effect right? I feel robbed of any quality of life I had before medicine. I was never this bad. All that's happened is I've gotten worse and now I have no income and all that se things that need done and I can't afford it. But I'm not sick enough or "too high functioning" to recieve any help. I don't get what is high functioning about me right now. I can't do anything!!!!!