To answer your question is my OCD "under control" , no it's not, actually on a scale from 1-5 and 5 being the worse honestly i'd say a 4 , it's a shame at times the way I think because I know better in that I can "control" almost all of my thoughts yet when it comes to the OCD I fail almost always - when I find myself being real obsessive I try to redirect my thought/s and tell myself "you're doing it again Rich" and most of the time it works, not always !

Nishan I wish you well I can't imagine what you're dealing with , God bless you !!