jessyJ, I don't have any suggestions or answers for you. My heart goes out to you. Middle school has to be the worst, I was bullied through out school because I was a bookworm or nerd. I never experienced anything like you describe. It was usually only one or two boys.

I was sexually and emotionally abused by an uncle for 9 yrs. Through counseling and personal growth, I am ready confront my abuser face to face. I feel like I am in the position now to tell him how he made me feel and demand to know why and I want an apology.

Each of us learn to deal with our trauma on an individual basis. If you ever need someone to just talk to, I am here as we all are.