Being recently diagnosed I am pretty confused about alotof things.
I assume that bi-polar doesn't just start at 43 years of age. I haven't really had much time to process all of this, but I wouldn't think this just begins at my age. I know I was severely emotionally shut down with anger really being the only thing I have felt in years. Now, as of a month ago when my wife left me I now feel the full range of emotions and I feel like it is crushing me. For the most part I am paralyzed in daily life. I want to get up and do things I just can't seem to force myself to do them. Instead I have been replaying every mistake I made in my marriage, and raising our kids. My wife is being supportive in her own way know that she knows this has been beyond my control, but she is really on the fence as to whether she can try fixing this ****** marriage of ours. I think that may be one of the reasons I'm stuck right now. I just don't know what or how to make myself move.