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Originally Posted by Pearl9327
I'm starting to think that chronic negativity is a bipolars' natural state. By that, I mean depression, pessimism, intense anxiety, irritability. For me at least, being positive, optimistic, hopeful and finding humor in things is a daily fight. I've been this way all of my 33 years. Does anyone else feel the same way?
Granted, I've been under a lot of stress lately. My finances keep tightening more and more, and I am getting more depressed about it. Maybe I'm about to be triggered into a hypomanic episode, which I certainly hope not. Luckily, I have finding and pursuing ways to help my financial state improve and I'm not letting this ruin me nor am I sitting around doing nothing. But damn, I am so irritable lately! Thanksgiving just passed, and I am grateful for nothing. Just now someone bumped into my table, and I felt like screaming. Just moody, pessimistic and irritable. And the fact that I am like this makes me even more down and feel lousy about myself.
Does anyone else believe negativity is a bipolars' natural state?
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I have been thinking the same thing about myself for YEARS now. No matter what I do, I can't seem to make myself believe there is any real reason to bee optimistic about anything in my life! Even when I do manage to muster a little bit of hope, I almost always 32nd up disappointed. I sometimes wonder if it's that I simply can't be happy or pleased with anything no matter what, or if it's that things just really go wrong. I tend to want to blame life's circumstances, but most if the people around me seem to think it's ME that's the problem. Whatever the case may be, I know my view is very negative and I have no idea how to change it! Especially since it's my opinion that seeing the "ugly truth" about things is simply being realistic. I feel that being overly optimistic is just "pie in the sky" type thinking. It doesn't seem realistic to me at all to believe the BEST in everything.