........"I've also done drugs and drank a lot in the past, although I made the decision to cut all of that out of my life a couple months back and was able to quit with no problem. ".........

If you were able to do that, then you are well on the road to recovery. Work on getting to know yourself and who you are. Maybe take some art classes. Try expressing yourself with art. Find a supporting environment in which you can do that. Never compare yourself to others.