I feel the same way when I did a "soul collage" for a women's retreat a few years ago. I still have the collages framed near my computer. It gives me something to meditate on. They're basically a question on one side pertaining to my life, and a mixed media collage on the other side.

One thing that I'm reminded of when I think of getting a regular job is am I going to be able to perform it when I'm not feeling well, like in a serious depression or when I'm hypomanic and scatterbrained. I also need to develop new skills, since my previous job was highly specialized and I can't do that anymore.