I feel like I am slowly losing control. I can't control my thoughts, and I just want to fall apart. I've been trying to reach my psychiatrist and therapist but no one has gotten back to me yet. I was trying to go med free, but now I'm starting to think that was silly. My support counselor told me to go to the ER of I think I need medication immediately, but I don't want them to admit me. I'm not suicidal or homicidal, and I highly doubt I can just treat the ER like my own personal pharmacy where they will give me medicine and just let me walk out when I'm done. I feel like an idiot for denying the medication, because now I'm sitting here crawling out of my skin. I can't sit still and I can't stop thinking. I just want to scream, I feel like I'm slowly losing my mind.