this time of year is hard for us to be positive, because of all the holidays- everyone having someone to spend it with and have lots of things to celebrate and us having none of it- not even our own family wishing us a merry christmas on the day.

we've been trying to be positive.. but god it's hard. even our self harm has been a nightmare this week- every day without fail

and some of us have thought about dying which makes it hard to focus on things