I've calmed down a bit. Thanksgiving just really set me back. I had been doing pretty good med free, but I wasn't ready to be around my family like that. It triggered me and I feel like I set myself back quite a bit. I'm going to try to stay calm and wait until Monday to speak with my psychiatrist so that I can start medication. I don't know why it was so important for me to be med free. Being a stable functioning human being is the ultimate goal.