First of all, who else has dissociative features with their PTSD? I'm still learning about this stuff, and I don't think the Dissociative forum is the right place because that is more DID.

Today was kind of an our of it, surreal day. Though nothing out of the ordinary happened. I seemed checked out. And this really, strange surreal feeling would come over me, like things moving in slow motion. People. I work retail and observe people, and was struck with that feeling. I don't know how else to describe it. And I had bad vertigo all day. I actually had a customer comment that I seemed out of it. Because I would randomly space out. Then again, I am being tested for absence seizures at the end of the month (hopefully) so maybe I had an absence seizure at that moment.

The thing is...nothing happened. It was a basic, ordinary day. I didn't see past abusers. Nothing triggered memories. No flashbacks. Maybe this is just exhaustion because I worked on Black Friday. I feel utterly exhausted but can't sleep.

But I do know I didn't want to be at work today. And as a child, when I didn't want to be somewhere, I mentally went some place else.