[QUOTE=RxQueen875;4794633]You seem like you have a lot of questions in life that therapy can help you understand. Also some trust issues as well. Are you diagnosed with any MI? My thought pattern and anger was a lot like yours when I was younger and undiagnosed. Luckily I got some medication and therapy and moved out of an abusive home that I grew up in.

Psychosis (NOS) schizoaffective disorder

I am not on meds. I fear meds I fear everything. My reality is destroyed by the neglect of my environment done unto ne. My mind is warped and confused. I just run and act out in public when it happens