I don't drink or do any kind of drugs. I haven't been able to see am actual doctor in years. Ive never had the money and never been able to work enough to afford to pay for it. I know I need a doctor but i just can't go for all the things I need checked and I was told i was going to get worse so seeing a psychiatrist was priority and cheaper. But now I can't afford anything and I see him on Monday. I don't know what hes going to suggest. He thinks i make things up and I tell him I can't afford to do all these things I need. I feel stuck. He seems to laugh at me when I come in and I don't know if its because he thinks I'm just afraid of medicine or if he thinks I'm an idiot. I don't know what he could possibly suggest to me now because he's telling me I'm hard to treat and he's just trying things on me now. It isn't reasurring and I've apparently wasted a lot of money on this. I was told I would be fine on medicine. I just can't do all the things I need and no one can help me.