i have anxiety over my last rights.

you know, funeral arangements, how i want my body to be got rid of, etc.

i know that i'm not going to be here to actually see it happen (so can't really tell them, no, i don't want this) something like that, but it does concern me- it's the 1 thing in my life that i want to get right, and i feel if i can't do this- i can't do anything

i keep thinking that once i'm dead the funeral people will go against my wishes and just do what they see best